somethings may never change
i just can't couldn't seem to get into the spirit of the chinese new year.
the closest i'd gotten was this banner i made-up and shot, for this blog.
*heh* ~ *read more after the jump*
... well, it was nearly this tho:
but at the end of the day, why complicate things? IMHO :)
altho t'was not just about the general lack of atmosphere nor festivities (bad local live-television variety shows do not equate "festivities" LOL) during the holidays past ...
for sure, situations were not as the same as previous year's ~ no last-minute spring cleaning (the family chilled out together). no horrific Reunion Dinner horror-stories (we had DIY-steamboat at home - now im not a big-fan of S/B, but still it was cool). and yes, unfortunately still no new clothes (even "pre-loved" ones :p) and we had our Lo Hei @ home on the second day :)
personally, it was quite a marked departure, compared to last years (and years before, actually), with the emphasis this year on "chill".
yesterday/wednesday marked the "physical"-end of the Chinese Lunar New Year just, by virtue of folks needing to go back to work! (ah, but for the harsh realities and practicalities Singaporeans are saddled with, eh? *heh*) - of coz the festivities lasts for another xxx more days... and the streets are once again filled with noisy cars, the school opposite my bedroom window is bustling again with even noisier kidsshutupalready and where the once sleepy-zombie-town-nation suddenly comes to life again (imagine CNY, where you don't really see much folks lingering outside their house :p) and a quasi-serene horror movie "calmness" welcomes my new year of the Porker Pig.
and in the encompassing stillness, i garnered a few "realizations"...
i "soul-search" more during the CNY than other peripheral holidays and this year, and the one thing i found was, "awkward-peace"... "peace" is becoz tis what i had truly wanted for myself, free from all forms and manner of entanglements (except for my mistress, "Mdm Bills", for i will always be her biatch to whip *crACk* ) but for the silent whirl of the fan-blades in my room is deafening enough, brokenup by the ever-slight monotonous tapping of keyboard-keys ... "awkward" becoz not everyone's going along with your game-plan, ya know? way too much strife all around - from neighbourhood politician-flakes and wannabe-bullies, to international disasters, to simple folks who insist on pilfering pix but leave no credit (tis getting way too farnie too - "watermarked", y'all? LOL) and everything intruding into thy "zen-space" (LOL gawd a crackpot i do sound, yeh?) and ya can't really do anything about it really, except to tune them out, innit? ... and i've had folks tell me: "you should be thankful with what you have, other folks all around are suffering etc" ... for sure that's the reality, but if i can't live their life for them, i sure as heck have to find a way to live my own, innit? *bleh*
i also realized, that maybe i was looking out for a fastfood-new year (?) = served fast / quick in-and-out / no fuss, no drama / eat good / laugh happily / bugger-out as soon as it's done / no twaddling. no baggage. no misgivings. no complaints / no further commitments other than the instant gratification of a singular shared happy moment/event, for one and all. healthy or not, tis a means to an end, i reckon ... but what made it cool this year, was visiting relations that we've not seen in yeaaaaaaars. gratifying, to say the least :)
and a final, hard-realization about myself (and even harder to accept) = i am a whiner. the notion slapped me fast and hard while tidying up and going thru my blog, i have to admit, ihave become am the cliched-singaporean whiner i claim not to be. to wit: me complaining about last year's CNY and everything else before this para! LOL *smacks palm on forehead* = i tell myself i will whine "less"... but talk is cheap and "complaining" is totally FREE in singalalaland, so there :p
and in all the lunar new year hoopla and toy-news overload (no, im not complaining NO), i'd miss a "birthday" ... this blog had just turned 2 years old, 19th Feb just :)
i had planned to re-start my a-toy-pix-day project (after a long hiatus) to mark the occasion,but i dont think anyone would notice anyways but as you can see plainly, there is nothing to rave about - for the irony of my frenzied-room packing/reorganization - had left me with my kitbash-parts nicely and neatly stashed away! the operative word being "stashed away" (ie: cannot be visibly seen) LOL *smacks both palms on forehead consecutively*
changes. yep, things sure have changed since two years ago. life. work. love. family. even this blog. and as much as tis "romantic" to say "even tho somethings change, somethings still stay the same" ~ mayhap we'd not be able to actually witness a change ourselves? imagine someone you live with or see every single day, and whatever "physical" changes that he or she might go thru, would not be as (immediately) obvious as say, someone who has not seen you in a year and to lay his/her eyes on you, becoz the memory of you was based on a year ago, as opposed to an hour ago, doesn't it?
and sometimes, all it needs is a once-a-year-visit to folks who do not see you everyday, to jolt you back into reality, innit? *heh*
but no, it wasn't a "bad" new years, not at all ... in fact, it was pretty darn good (lack of festive spirits notwithstanding, of coz :p), if notboring uneventful ...
altho one of the highlights and wonders of this new year, had been the witnessing of a "revolutionary" change of the CNY Ang Pow (auspicious paper red-packets filled with money given out by your elders, to young'uns and non-married folks, like me :p):
on the left is ye old recognizable red-packets ... and on the right, is the new and improved quasi-3D-pop-up cuteness!
old vs new 
(my thanks to Tank Girl for letting me put her in a cheong-sum LOL)
*somethings may never change, but nothing will forever remain the same*
the closest i'd gotten was this banner i made-up and shot, for this blog.
*heh* ~ *read more after the jump*... well, it was nearly this tho:
but at the end of the day, why complicate things? IMHO :)
altho t'was not just about the general lack of atmosphere nor festivities (bad local live-television variety shows do not equate "festivities" LOL) during the holidays past ...
for sure, situations were not as the same as previous year's ~ no last-minute spring cleaning (the family chilled out together). no horrific Reunion Dinner horror-stories (we had DIY-steamboat at home - now im not a big-fan of S/B, but still it was cool). and yes, unfortunately still no new clothes (even "pre-loved" ones :p) and we had our Lo Hei @ home on the second day :)
personally, it was quite a marked departure, compared to last years (and years before, actually), with the emphasis this year on "chill".
yesterday/wednesday marked the "physical"-end of the Chinese Lunar New Year just, by virtue of folks needing to go back to work! (ah, but for the harsh realities and practicalities Singaporeans are saddled with, eh? *heh*) - of coz the festivities lasts for another xxx more days... and the streets are once again filled with noisy cars, the school opposite my bedroom window is bustling again with even noisier kids
and in the encompassing stillness, i garnered a few "realizations"...
i "soul-search" more during the CNY than other peripheral holidays and this year, and the one thing i found was, "awkward-peace"... "peace" is becoz tis what i had truly wanted for myself, free from all forms and manner of entanglements (except for my mistress, "Mdm Bills", for i will always be her biatch to whip *crACk* ) but for the silent whirl of the fan-blades in my room is deafening enough, brokenup by the ever-slight monotonous tapping of keyboard-keys ... "awkward" becoz not everyone's going along with your game-plan, ya know? way too much strife all around - from neighbourhood politician-flakes and wannabe-bullies, to international disasters, to simple folks who insist on pilfering pix but leave no credit (tis getting way too farnie too - "watermarked", y'all? LOL) and everything intruding into thy "zen-space" (LOL gawd a crackpot i do sound, yeh?) and ya can't really do anything about it really, except to tune them out, innit? ... and i've had folks tell me: "you should be thankful with what you have, other folks all around are suffering etc" ... for sure that's the reality, but if i can't live their life for them, i sure as heck have to find a way to live my own, innit? *bleh*
i also realized, that maybe i was looking out for a fastfood-new year (?) = served fast / quick in-and-out / no fuss, no drama / eat good / laugh happily / bugger-out as soon as it's done / no twaddling. no baggage. no misgivings. no complaints / no further commitments other than the instant gratification of a singular shared happy moment/event, for one and all. healthy or not, tis a means to an end, i reckon ... but what made it cool this year, was visiting relations that we've not seen in yeaaaaaaars. gratifying, to say the least :)
and a final, hard-realization about myself (and even harder to accept) = i am a whiner. the notion slapped me fast and hard while tidying up and going thru my blog, i have to admit, i
and in all the lunar new year hoopla and toy-news overload (no, im not complaining NO), i'd miss a "birthday" ... this blog had just turned 2 years old, 19th Feb just :)
i had planned to re-start my a-toy-pix-day project (after a long hiatus) to mark the occasion,
changes. yep, things sure have changed since two years ago. life. work. love. family. even this blog. and as much as tis "romantic" to say "even tho somethings change, somethings still stay the same" ~ mayhap we'd not be able to actually witness a change ourselves? imagine someone you live with or see every single day, and whatever "physical" changes that he or she might go thru, would not be as (immediately) obvious as say, someone who has not seen you in a year and to lay his/her eyes on you, becoz the memory of you was based on a year ago, as opposed to an hour ago, doesn't it?
and sometimes, all it needs is a once-a-year-visit to folks who do not see you everyday, to jolt you back into reality, innit? *heh*
but no, it wasn't a "bad" new years, not at all ... in fact, it was pretty darn good (lack of festive spirits notwithstanding, of coz :p), if not
altho one of the highlights and wonders of this new year, had been the witnessing of a "revolutionary" change of the CNY Ang Pow (auspicious paper red-packets filled with money given out by your elders, to young'uns and non-married folks, like me :p):
on the left is ye old recognizable red-packets ... and on the right, is the new and improved quasi-3D-pop-up cuteness!
old vs new (my thanks to Tank Girl for letting me put her in a cheong-sum LOL)
*somethings may never change, but nothing will forever remain the same*
