> dazed and blissed

a momentary distraction. a quickfix. a sneaky snack. a mere glimpse to what could have been. and a mere glimpse it will remain; it seems ... the bliss had all but gone astray and what's left is an emptiness fills the void once more ... a dull ache; a familiar feeling. it sucks to be mature about it all. it sucks to be "aware" ... and im not "liked" ... "enough" ... i dun wanna think too much about it all ... i dun wanna mindfuck myself too much anymore ... and i greet my new saturday with a low hum ...

checking dad into the hospital in half an hour. and i pray silently to the gods for their favour and mercy and ask for nothing else more.

i am in a daze. blissed out and mundane. i remain.